There are seasons of motherhood when I feel like I’m in over my head.
Those newborn days, when sleep was limited, exhaustion was normal, and I hadn’t discerned those different cries, insecurities abounded. That was one.
Those terrible twos…I had one daughter who had them terribly…before two even arrived. Overwhelmed? Definitely.
Then came the preschool years, the starting kindergarten, the elementary school days. For the most part I got those. After all, that’s what I went to college for – to know about kids that age, teach them how to read, help them develop socially, all that good stuff
Now we’re in the almost-a-teenager stage….moving into the youth group at church…and I’m drowning.
Yet it drives me to where I most need to be….on my knees, in prayer. Prayers for me for wisdom, the right words, proper timing, the ability to listen, patience…everything, and mostly grace. And prayers for her…God’s best, His leading, her desire for Him.
Yes, I’m definitely in over my head. My heart’s heavily involved. What gives me peace? Knowing that He loves her far more than I do. Can it be??? Yes, it’s true. Those familiar Proverbs 3:5-6 verses, about trusting the Lord with all my heart, not leaning on my own understanding? That means trusting Him with our daughter, confident that how He’s working is best, not orchestrating my own deal.
This being a momma thing isn’t for the faint of heart. It’s hard work – heart work – and it’s trusting and it’s praying and it’s giving and it’s loving….and it’s worth it.
Amen. Thanks for this encouragement ~ completely relating to this today! Heart work, indeed. 🙂 Praising God for His trustworthiness!
Blessings to you~
Thank you for sharing those verses! Psalm 62:8 is a great verse for me today!!
"It's hard work – heart work…." so true! And it drives me to my knees, too, as I pray for patience with my children. And guidance for how best to teach them about the Lord.
Yes. Even though my children haven't reached young adulthood yet (my preferred name for the adolescent years), I have a son who vexes me greatly at times, so I can totally relate to the hard work, heart work you speak of. We need to pray SO hard for our children!!
Amen to the nth degree! 😀
aurie good says
It's so stinking hard some days. Some saving grace is the knowledge that God loves them so much more than I do and that He knows them.