I am selfish.
Being a mom seems to reveal just how selfish I am.
I want the children to go to bed so that I can have some quiet time. I want them to obey so that I can be spared the trouble of disciplining them.
I want them to sit quietly in church so that I can listen to the sermon and not be distracted by their behavior. I want them to instinctively do the right thing so that I don’t have to use my time to train them. I want their tastes and interests to align with mine so that I don’t have to stretch outside my comfort zone.
However, I need to want what’s best for them, not necessarily for me. It’s not in me to overcome my selfishness, but it’s in Him. I am trying to ask daily for this help, to at least see progress in overcoming my addiction to my own desires. This is a spiritual struggle and begins with surrender of myself to God so that He might help me put others’ needs ahead of my own.
Through His power, may I become more selfless each day.
You mean that I'm not the only selfish mother? I struggle with the exact same issues of selfishness with my children. Oh, it's hard, isn't it? I thank God that He is transforming me day by day into the image of His Son, even though I think the process is taking much too long. *Sigh*
I struggle with this, too. What parent doesn't? Thank God for His grace!!!
I don't think it's selfish to want children to be still in church services – I think that is as much for their good as it is for ours! I guess with some of these it has to do with the attitude in which they are done. I don't think it's selfish to want the children to go to bed so we can have quiet time, either – even the Lord went apart from the crowds in order to have quiet time – God gave us a need for that! Was He being selfish in wanting that time, or does it stem from a deep need and thirst for time apart from the clamour of daily life and others' needs?? Just a thought! 😉
But yes, I do struggle in some of these areas, too – I think every parent probably does! Especially when it comes to discipline!!
I was thinking the same thing on Sunday – wishing that I could just listen to the sermon for once instead of wrangling my girls for an hour. May we all pray for patience and see through His eyes.
The longer I parent, the more I realize it's as much or more about the Lord raising me and is it me raising the kids.
Thank you for this convicting post, Tracey. I could've written it myself! May the Lord prune and mold me to be more like His Son daily…all for His glory!!
Blessings to you and yours,