I am selfish.
Being a mom seems to reveal just how selfish I am.
I want the children to go to bed so that I can have some quiet time. I want them to obey so that I can be spared the trouble of disciplining them.
I want them to sit quietly in church so that I can listen to the sermon and not be distracted by their behavior. I want them to instinctively do the right thing so that I don’t have to use my time to train them. I want their tastes and interests to align with mine so that I don’t have to stretch outside my comfort zone.
However, I need to want what’s best for them, not necessarily for me. It’s not in me to overcome my selfishness, but it’s in Him. I am trying to ask daily for this help, to at least see progress in overcoming my addiction to my own desires. This is a spiritual struggle and begins with surrender of myself to God so that He might help me put others’ needs ahead of my own.
Through His power, may I become more selfless each day.